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lyrics by anorak.

forlorn/desolate/alone

forlorn/desolate/alone

waking up is not a normal procedure as for others

i have always stuck to this rules that i cannot escape

left foot before the right and check if anything changed during night

the windows are closed, the door is still locked and everything else is in order

but as if someone could have done anything

no one is with me because i’ve decide to be alone

forlorn, desolate and always alone

i’m left with my feelings and thoughts in my home

i’m trapped in my mind, nobody cares, but how should they know

my feelings force me in solitude

it’s like i’ve never existed

no one would survive the circumstances i live in

but it’s my life and i decided this is the only way for me

for years i haven’t talked to another human being

‘cause people are not able to understand how the world works

and i’m about to realize i don’t want to be a part of it

but as if someone could have done anything

no one is with me because i’m alone … forever

forlorn, desolate and always alone

i’m left with my feelings and thoughts in my home

i’m trapped in my mind nobody cares but how should they know

my feelings force me in solitude

it’s like i’ve never existed

trapped in his head

trapped in feelings

trapped in conflicts

trapped in misanthropy

sleepless nights, sleepless days

sleepless nights, sleepless days

“go to school

get a job

get a girlfriend

have children

follow fashion, obey the law

save for your old-age [2x]

now repeat after me

i am free

i am free

now repeat after me

i am free”

the way you look at me i see

there is a coward in you and in me

the way you look at me i see

there is a coward in you and in me

tell me about your days (tell me about) [2x]

what opportunity’s do we have

we must make a choice

follow or been followed

what have i done

alone in the dark

where do i find it

where do i find it

sleepless nights, sleepless days or am i never awake

silent shouts

restless standing

which way will you choose

where do i want to go (where do i)[2x]

i don’t know [2x]

anywhere but home

we must make a choice

follow or been followed

what have i done

alone in the dark

where do i find it

where do i find it

morning view

morning view

this way could be much simpler

if only our head could figure out which way our hearts will go

but the heart has its reasons of which reasons we cannot know

as hamlet said to ophelia: “god has given you a face and you make yourself another”

this battle between those two half’s of identity

who we are and who we pretend to be

is unwinnable

this way could be much simpler

if only our head could figure out which way our hearts will go

but the heart has its reasons of which reasons we cannot know

the greatest weapon anyone can use against us is our own mind

by confronting us with the doubts and uncertainties that already lurked inside

are we true to ourselves or do we live for the expectations of others?

and if we are open and honest, can we find the courage to release our deepest secrets?

or in the end

are we still unknowable?

this way could be much simpler

if only our head could figure out which way our hearts will go

but the heart has its reasons of which reasons we cannot know

unknowable to ourselves

cessastion

cessastion

the phone is ringing again and you are still not there

i have almost given up the hope

but then it’s your voice

i don’t understand what you mean

you must be sick

i only make out a few snippets

of this conversation

“no more power” “make me sick” “it’s over”

silence

another call

“my children” “can’t see them anymore” “move away over the weekend” “neighbour cares”

cessation

it’s dark and cold, fucking cold

thousands of calls but no response

she didn’t mean it like that

she loves me, us, the family

we’ll be together, forever

the pictures in my heart and in my hand begin to crumble [3x]

i can’t stand it anymore

i have to see them

starting my car

why has it gone so far

telling the neighbour that everything is okay

she doesn’t have to stay

step in and everything seems so familiar

my angels, sleeping so still

deadly still

it’s dark and cold, fucking cold

thousands of calls but no response

she didn’t mean it like that

she loves me, us, the family

we’ll be together, forever

there’s blood all over the stairs

one brigade upstairs, one on the ground floor

bloody footsteps on the carpet

and there he is

three children lying next to each other in the bed

full of blood and dead [2x]

one guy in front of it

full of blood but still breathing

“that seemed to be the only way we could be together…forever….

… i failed”

the calm

the calm

your thoughts are crushing through my head

why can’t i be who i am, i just want us to stay

is it your way of danger that makes me stay?

we can handle this

i can handle this

it’s not mine it’s yours

but i cannot distance myself

i know it’s not my fear

but the fear of the unknown is always the strongest fear

so take it and leave me alone

but i need you

and you need…

your silence awakes me

why do i hate when there is nothing i have to

i’m lying next to you

you’re lying next to me

we can handle this

i can handle this

i have always been your anchor

but your waves are too big for this little ship

so take it and leave me alone

but i need you

and you need…

your silence awakes me

why do i hate when there is nothing i have to

i’m lying next to you

you’re lying next to me

we can handle this

i can handle this

so let us stay

let us brake together

we will find out how far we can go

so let us cry

let us cry together

it will be a fantastic show

and if i die

we will die together….

the tempest

the tempest

how can silence become so loud?

why don’t you understand, that i need distance now

so hold me forever in your arms

and leave me alone

i can’t stand it anymore, that you’re still lying

when did you start thinking

that you know what is good for me

when did you get so insensitive

every step of you takes one of mine

every breath of you takes one of mine

how can silence become so loud?

why don’t you understand, that i need distance now

so hold me forever in your arms

and leave me alone

you’re still lying next to me

that is all i need

feel that you’re there

your words

keep me grounded

step by step we both advance

breath by breath we both advance

how can silence become so loud?

why don’t you understand, that i need distance now

so hold me forever in your arms

and leave me alone

so let us stay, let us brake together

we will find out how far we can go

let us cry, let us cry together

it will be a fantastic show

cause we can handle this

i can handle this…

how can silence become so loud?

why don’t you understand, that i need distance now

so hold me forever in your arms

and leave me alone

the mood

the mood

walking down the road

no eyes on me

trying to focus

somebody

but nobody is able to recognize me

cause nobody sees me

pluralizing and individualizing takes place

and it’s not a superpower anymore, to be invisible

the doorbell is ringing

mail-garbage-man again

the clock ticks loud

in the kitchen

or is it just the ticking

of bullet casings on tv

how far away they are

how happy could i be

one red drop to forget everything

a little step to be back again

one red drop just to feel something

all these spoken words

living visions in my head

how can i realize

and will i ever forget

when i’m walking down the road

their looks dagger at me

how can they condemn

when they haven’t even seen

sitting in front of my glass

just to stun myself

just to feel anything

maybe to feel nothing

...birds

…birds

you’re running, you’re running, you’re running away

but there is no one behind you

you’re breathing, you’re breathing, you’re breathing the fresh air

some birds singing in a tree

they sing: there is no difference between you and me

they sing: choose whoever you want, you’re free

but it’s a choice between the devil and the deep blue sea

the only one who will win, … that’s me

don’t be afraid my son, and trust me

that’s what we call democracy

you’re running, you’re running, you’re running away

but there is no one behind you

you’re breathing, you’re breathing, you’re breathing the fresh air

some birds singing in a tree

the waves chuck all over the devil

and bother him in the deep blue sea

in the front of hills and skies

we strike back with fulfilled lives

you’re running, you’re running, you’re running away

but there is no one behind you

you’re breathing, you’re breathing, you’re breathing the fresh air

some birds singing in a tree

i cleansed my eyes of the dust of their lies to their desperation

lying truth

lying truth

we always get

damned by our past

but in days like these

truth comes at least

when the guns fell silent, you begun to sell them all

to friends, the east and the ones

you despise and never give a hand

for us it was of little help,

for you a blessing and a change

we know you live in a noble world

you write the rules of health and death

you better pay for it in advance

to offset them a culture and its worth

which takes you to the law of our earth

by this time we try to find balance

to optimize and provide lots for all

it’s a pity that you can’t eat their ground

and drink our oil at once

we are open minded and have heart

we are strong enough to challenge your dream

but it never comes to your mind

caused by the roots of your life

we know you live in a noble world

you write the rule of health and death

you better pay for it in advance

to offset them a culture and its worth

which takes you to the law of our earth

thank you god, his prayer is heard

thank you for a damaged world

we know you live in a noble world

you write the rule of health and death

you better pay for it in advance

to offset them a culture and its worth

which takes you to the law of our earth

we know you live in a noble world…

thank you god his prayer is heard…

these times

these times

stand up if it’s worth fighting for

pay heed

be loud if you are sure that you really want to support

don’t follow orders blindly

just open your ears and eyes

thousands of people in front of a stage

thousands of clapping hands

thousands of screaming voices

but do you know what your performance is good for?

did you ever think about to whom you gave your consent

stand up if it’s worth fighting for

pay heed for what they say

be loud if you are sure that you definitely want to support it

don’t carry out orders blindly

just open your ears and eyes

together in the stands

so mighty, so untouchable

following the “capo”

united against the enemy

acting as one, but do you think

remember these times, when all stopped thinking

these times, all acted as one

these times you only heard one voice

one puppet master and eighty million puppets

stand up if it’s worth fighting for

pay heed for what they say

be loud if you are sure that you’re definitely want to support it

don’t carry out orders blindly

just open your ears and eyes

move to the north the south is rough

move to the north the south is rough

i promise you that i will

start to the desert

i bet you never believe

that i ride the west, up to the mountain

at least we will stay in the snow

in the bright of alaska

like i go and like i went

and i never knew

the deadlines are frozen in the past

are frozen in the past

and on the last steps from this ground

polar lights and colours like art

too bright to emphasize, this time it’s hard

and all the good times are frozen in the past

and all the good times i need to feel the chance

at least we will stay in the snow

in the bright of alaska

like i go and like i went

and i never knew

the deadlines are frozen in the past

are frozen in the past

one last breath for your deadlines

and another to the end

you thought it’s just a walk, it ends exactly right now

i thought it never ends

but that was my life

it was everything

but it’s not enough

like i go

and like i went

we live in the wild

like i go

and like i went

it’s just part of your mind

cold winter

cold winter

if the beaches are closed

and your holiday canceled

you think about where your peace has gone

if “concerned citizens” are on the streets

and this is decisive for your sense of unity

i think about where my peace has gone

if monetary control policy

and war becomes a tool of it

we should think about where our peace has gone

the new, peaceful europe was built on inalienable rights of every human being

we are transparent humans, generation cold peace

does it need to get physical to feel anything at least?

therefore each human being has the claim of protection, dignity and is the recipient of all human rights

unless they boarded a boat on the beaches of asia

unless they boarded a boat on the beaches of africa

go out and stay away cold winter

your chill breeze keeps me awake in this balmy summer night

close the window and lock the door

so i can sleep peacefully for the rest of my life

a queasy feeling sneak in

with increasing frequency the news are turned off

the nights are getting longer and the music louder

be careful on this frail ice

as long as third countries are involved in this cold war,

as long as you prey upon the poor

you should not be surprised if the consequence of this cautious stands in your backyard

go out and stay away cold winter

your chill breeze keeps me awake in this balmy summer night

close the window and lock the door

so i can sleep peacefully for the rest of my life

if we could create respect

or just be open-minded

we could all live in a warm peace by and by

hollow

hollow

There is so much safety in this hole

That place where he can be who he is

A place where nobody judges him for what he is thinking

That place where he can say everything

They are sitting in front of each other

Same as every day

A few from steel and his hands start to shake

It’s all for recognition, it’s all for staying here

Will the steel ever soften?

Will his work make sense some day?

On the other side there is a sea full of affection

So much that the contours perish in

Which way will be the right, he doesn’t know

Which way will be the right, he doesn’t know and starts to swim

There is so much safety in this hole

That place where he can be who he is

A place where nobody judges him for what he is thinking

That place where he can say everything

It’s a long way and the waves become stronger

But on the horizon there is an island

Focused, he is leaving them all behind but always keeping them in mind

He scrolls in his picture-book in black and white

Not knowing his favorite time

Is it worth investing even more, he doesn’t know

Is it worth investing even more, he doesn’t know and starts to swim

There is so much safety in this hole

That place where he can be who he is

A place where nobody judges him for what he is thinking

That place where he can say everything

Arrived he digs a hole

And cries

memo

memo

If I will have an airborne death

I really hope to be alone

In a vacant toilet room

So I can see

Myself and my groan

And wasn’t this your whole life goal

To be alone in your four walls

So what do you expect

To feel your body at least

Or just to feel anything at all

Yesterday I had a thought

My brain is not my mind

And my mind is not my heart

Yesterday I had a thought

My brain is not my mind

And my mind is not my heart

Just open eyes … at night

This conversation is a mess

It’s more like shaking hands in the rain

Than taking a picture of us

And putting it into a frame

This conversation is a mess

It’s more like shaking hands in the rain

Than taking a picture of us

And putting it into a frame